Anonymous asked: what's your new job?! :)
I’m a PA for a health food company that sell tonic herbs!
i just want a boy who touches me distractedly
like sitting watching a movie and he just kinds of drags his fingers over your skin while watching and he doesn’t have a motive he’s not trying to tickle you or be sexual with you he’s just touching your skin and feeling the shape of your bones under that skin like it’s physically comforting for him to know that you’re there right under his fingertips
oh fuck i didnt know girls liked when i did this
Well I haven’t been on tumblr for a few days & everything has changed.
Craig finished things last Thursday, he sent me this text in the morning;
Hello charlie, I know I’ve not been messaging you back for a while, and it’s time you had an explanation from me.
The thing is, I’m finding it really difficult to have a girlfriend while I’m out here. Our conversations have sometimes made me slightly concerned about you and us.
I need to be 100% focused on my job, or I could get injured even worse I could put someone else’s life in danger. I still care for you, but for the time being I think I need to be on my own.
It’s not fair on both of us and I can see that? I’ve been a right mahoosive dyick I’m sorry.
I’m still going to write to you, it’s not that I don’t care about you because I do. I’m just finding it more difficult than first anticipated, there is a lot of thinking time out here and all the thinking is driving me fooking koo koo mad.
Don’t take this as a goodbye you’re In my life in more ways than anyone has been before.
When I’m back we could possibly start over. Xxxx
I said we could sort things out, but to be honest, I don’t think I really want to. I also don’t want him to write to me. The more I think about it the more I realise how awful he was to me and it makes me really sad 😔
I’m talking to someone who is genuinely lovely but I’m still unsure of him. My head is in such a funny place at the minute, I don’t really know what to do…
I want to not think about what anyone thinks and just get on with it but say if this new guy did work out I know I’d feel rubbish when Craig came home, & I know I’d want to see him & try and sort things. I don’t even know what to do…
Well, I’m single again.
Absolutely fucking devastated.
Anonymous asked: I've read a few of your posts recently and in the nicest way possible, you need to take a hold of your life! You seem a lovely girl who is just letting her life and everyone in it just pass her by. I know things must be hard but sometimes you gotta be selfish, you deserve to put yourself first for at least once. Give yourself time to be comfortable within yourself & watch everything fall I to place.
Whoever this is please come off anon?
That was a very sensible thing to say & I am starting to take life by the horns now! Thank you!